December 13, 2018

I took a long and much needed break from my blog and from social media. This is my first post since July 6. There is so much on my mind, too much to write here, in this post. Maybe it feels that way because I haven’t posted in so long. Of course there is so much to catch up on, it’s been months.

I just poured my heart out, but it was too much. I deleted it all. There is a fine line I am always balancing on. I want to be honest, but then what if people get hurt along the way? I don’t want to do that. I don’t know how people write their memoir, airing it all out, calling out their parents and friends and everyone. How do they live with hurting everyone around them? Let me know if you have answers for me. I need so many answers.

Today is Thursday. Mayim is home with a cold that I gave him. It’s December already. I don’t know how it is already December. I feel like my feet haven’t touched the ground since last spring. I long to feel grounded and attached and fully familiar with the fact that it is December. I don’t know where my head lives, up in the clouds, that’s where we Pisces naturally live. Everything feels like so much, my children fill up most of my time and my mental energy. And what else? I’m still feeling so many feelings about my last show. And there’s still so much to do with that. I’m moving onto a new project that I am ecstatic about. It’s scary to start something new. There is so much that I don’t know. I have to keep moving forward, it will all reveal itself in time. Being patient is the worst. I’m terrible at it.

I am looking to hire someone to help me with my social media. If you know of anyone, please send them my way.