July 12, 2019 — Eden Swartz

Glimpses of July. July 12, 2019

Today started with a migraine hangover. This is the new experience in my journey through perimenopause. Shit headaches, then a shit migraine hangover the next day. No one talks about perimenopause and how utterly confusing, annoying, frustrating and crappy it can be. I’m so sorry to say all of this. I hate to put out toxic energy, but for those of you going through this, you will know exactly what I am talking about.

Three days until we leave on our vacation. I have 10,000 lists. Plus so many things to do. I promise I’m excited, I just can’t show it yet. Too many things to do in order to be ready. But I will get it done! My mantra lately has been, “I can do it”, which is such a giant improvement over, “what if I can’t do it”. Right?! Mantras are powerful magic. Use them and you will change your life.

I have to rush this. I want to watch Stranger Things and Aaron fell asleep waiting for me. I will wake him up so we can watch it. (Also, I binge watched most of the first season of Big Little Lies today. It was very excellent and very dark.)

Love, Eden