I realized so many things today. I realized that the tablecloth that I just dyed would look great on the table on the back deck. And I also realized that I could spend the whole day by the pool. I really cannot understand why or how it took me so long to come to the realization that I could spend the day at the pool just as I would a day at the beach in Maui, or a day at the pool in Florida. I’ve been putting so much pressure on myself to ACCOMPLISH things everyday. To be in the studio and be diligent. I put all of that aside today and packed a beach bag full of good poolside activities. My knitting, a book (kindle), my phone for podcasts. It was divine and I plan on having another pool day tomorrow. This hot weather is dreamy and I would like to allow myself to enjoy it. Is it hard for you to let your hair down and relax? It feels almost impossible for me sometimes. I got my period this morning which meant I felt exhausted, which also allowed me to let myself off the hook and just relax. Even on a Wednesday. It is usually more than impossible for me to relax on a weekday. I am practicing.

Do all meditation groups meet early in the morning? At the beginning of the summer my group was meeting at 7 am and then again at 8 am. 8 am works for me. 7 am is awful. Too early. It’s midnight now. Waking up at 6:30 am sounds too early.

I am going to read my new book now. Just for a little while.

Stay safe and wear your mask, dammit. Sending all the love.

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