February 1, 2017
This morning I read too much about the current state of our government and then I started to cry and I could not stop. I cried for hours, until I gave myself a migraine. I am now on a news blackout. I instructed Aaron to let me know if anything happens that I need to know about. It is not that I do not want to be informed, it is that I need a break from the heart and gut wrenching ugliness that has taken over.
An old friend replied to an earlier blog post, "On one of my missions in South Sudan we had a screaming wall. It was awesome. Would just go yell at a big brick wall. It was helpful that it couldn't yell back". I think a wall like this would be helpful for me. I often want to scream, as you know.
When I was in high school my dear camp friend, Amy, introduced me to music I had never heard before. Cat Stevens, Joni Mitchell, Grateful Dead, Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young. I've never stopped listening to these people, my favorites. I keep going back - now more than ever. They came out of the '60's and '70's. A time of activism, marching, the Women's Movement, the Civil Rights Movement - I am afraid we are back to all of that. All. Of. That. We will have to fight, again, for what was so hard earned by our mothers and fathers, aunts, uncles, friends, neighbors. It seems like we've gone backwards. I keep asking "HOW?, How are we here? How has this happened?". And everyone around me is asking "HOW???". How are we here? How has this happened?".
Anyway. What I really wanted to share is a photograph that I took because we all need some relief from the fighting and the crying and the disbelief and the heartbreak. A baby bunny. In a felted bowl (felted by the lovely Rachel Mayes). A tiny, sweet, baby bunny. Please, take a nice long inhale and let it out with a nice, long exhale. Enjoy that. I am sending love and kindness and compassion out to all of you, out to the world. I hope your hearts feel better.