I drove for the first time since quarantine today. It was a taste of the old life. I ordered some plants at our local nursery, Naomi’s. Naomi’s is a small, locally owned nursery that I love. They are right down the street. They have the social distancing, curbside pickup down. I placed my order over the phone. I pulled in. They stuck it in my trunk and I drove away. Nailed it! I am so excited to have some planting to do. It’s a new and wonderful phenomenon that the smallest things to look forward to are now really important, big deals. I get to plant some plants!!! Fuck yeah! We need good things to look forward to.

I don’t want to talk about my worries. Of which there are many. I just don’t want to. I’m sick of them. I’m embarrassed and ashamed to have them. So fuck it. For now.

Today was a good day. I had my coffee time zoom chat, which was really nice. I saw my mom for a hot minute and gave her some plants for Mother’s Day. I also gave her some photos that I had taken of her sweet pets that have crossed the rainbow bridge. She called to thank me, she was in tears. My mother has a really big heart when it comes to animals. I was sad she was sad, but it was so nice to hear her say thank you.

I hope you are doing OK. I hope you are practicing self-care. Be kind and gentle to yourself, this is a hard time. Sending you all the love.

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