My anxiety level today was around a level 4 to 6, out of 10. Not so bad. I had therapy this morning, which is a blessing in my life. Sometimes I hold it together by telling myself I just need to get to Wednesday, just get to Wednesday and everything is going to be OK. It helps. Like taking baby steps. Not thinking too far into the future, focusing on that one thing, it helps me get there.

Today there was no school and it really hit home that soon, the boys will be done with school for the summer. Then what? What will we do all summer? Marisa and I are going to create some sort of camp. Solitary Camp. How fun. Ugh. I just want to yell FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. All. The. Time. FUCK.

I will make a schedule and then we will do it. Or not. And it will be fine. I will take fine. And I will take feeling bored. Let’s all just be fine with fine. And boredom. We’ll get through this together.

I love you. So much. Sending you light!