Our Walk at Dusk. July 15, 2020

How are you dealing with the continuous feeling of overwhelm? Sometimes I am fine. Sometimes I feel very anxious. Sometimes I feel numb. Right now I feel mostly numb, with a side of anxious. Mayim’s nose is stuffy and he’s sneezy. Is it allergies? What is it? What the fucking fuck.

Lately I’ve been feeling bored and completely uninterested in doing anything. Does that make me boring? All I can do is roll my eyes. I’m so annoyed. Frustrated. Irritated. Angry. Anxious. Depressed. This is behind the curtain, shit. Am I still likable? Fuck.

The Director of the CDC said if we all wear masks, the numbers would go way down in a matter of weeks. How stupid are we as a country? This country has caused me to become completely insane. Insane. Are you insane? How is this bullshit acceptable? Wear your fucking mask, you imbeciles.

On our walk tonight, a man across the street sneezed a wet, sloppy sneeze. Did not even cover it. I wish I could write him a ticket for being a complete slob with no manners. We were wearing our masks. Thankfully, or else I would have to have a panic attack. And we were across the street. But still, do I need any more anxiety than I already have? Sneeze into your elbow, you fucking moron.

I am still rolling my eyes. I hate everyone. But not you.

Stay safe. Wear your mask. All the time. It’s a good habit. You never know when some rude motherfucker is going to sloppy sneeze nearby.

Sending all the love.

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